Behind the Citgo

A sister's love. A family's heartbreak. A fight for recovery that continues today.
In Episode 42 of Behind the Citgo, host Josh Torbich sits down with Lindsay Jenkins, a longtime advocate for addiction recovery and supporter of Christian Recovery Centers, Inc. (CRCI), to share the heartbreaking story of losing her younger brother, Daniel Vance Jenkins, to substance use and how his memory continues to inspire hope.
For years, Lindsay and her family faced the devastating realities of drug addiction, repeated rehabilitation attempts, relapse, and the emotional toll addiction takes on loved ones. Through moments of hope and painful setbacks, Lindsay learned the importance of tough love, setting boundaries, and putting recovery first.
After Daniel's passing, Lindsay turned her grief into action, becoming an advocate for accessible, faith-based addiction recovery. Today, Daniel's legacy lives on through the Daniel Vance Jenkins Chapel at CRCI's Grant's Harbor campus, reminding residents of the importance of recovery and the lives affected by addiction.
In this powerful conversation, Josh and Lindsay discuss:
• Daniel's struggle with addiction and the family tragedies that shaped his journey.• The warning signs of substance use disorder and its impact on families.• Tough love, enabling behaviors, and making difficult decisions for loved ones.• Why recovery must come before rebuilding other areas of life.• The challenges of finding affordable, long-term addiction treatment.• Fentanyl awareness and the devastating consequences of drug use.• Turning grief into purpose through faith, advocacy, and community support.
"Recovery is possible, but addiction can end in death." — Lindsay Jenkins
This episode is a message to every parent, sibling, spouse, and friend watching someone they love struggle with addiction: You are not alone, help is available, and recovery is possible.
At Christian Recovery Centers, we believe lives can be restored through faith, community, accountability, and meaningful recovery support.
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How can faith, education, and spiritual formation help people rebuild their lives in addiction recovery? In Episode 41 of Behind the Citgo, Dr. DJ Bradley II shares his journey from a West Virginia jail cell to recovery, theological education, and helping others discover renewed purpose.
A graduate of Christian Recovery Centers, Inc. (CRCI), Dr. Bradley now helps develop the curriculum connecting West Theological Seminary with CRCI’s recovery programs. His story offers a personal look at how Christian recovery, biblical studies, and supportive community can create opportunities for growth.
Together, we explore what it means to “recover the inner life”—examining the beliefs, habits, and motivations that shape who we become. Dr. Bradley reflects on surrender, accountability, and the difference between completing a program and doing the internal work of transformation.
The conversation explores:
• Dr. Bradley’s journey through addiction, incarceration, and recovery.• The connection between spiritual formation, identity, and personal growth.• How CRCI integrates seminary education into its recovery programs.• A flexible curriculum that helps residents continue their studies while traveling for program activities.• Authority, silence, and obedience—the themes of his book, Under the Teacher, and its companion journal.• How authentic testimony, mentorship, and community can help others imagine a different future.• CRCI’s mission to help men and women rebuild their lives with faith, purpose, and opportunity.
Whether you are navigating recovery, supporting someone you love, serving in ministry, or working in recovery services, this episode offers an honest conversation about the work of rebuilding from within.
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BTC EP#40: Counterfeit Peace – Ryan Duerk’s Journey from Addiction to Purpose
What happens when the things we turn to for peace become the very things that destroy it?
In Episode 40 of Behind the Citgo, host Lavar Marlow sits down with Ryan Duerk to explore his journey through addiction, recovery, and the search for genuine peace and purpose.
Through an honest conversation about the struggles of addiction and the challenges of rebuilding a life, this episode explores the difference between temporary escape and lasting fulfillment. Ryan's story opens the door to a powerful discussion about personal transformation, finding meaning beyond substance use, and the hope that recovery can bring.
Whether you're navigating addiction, supporting someone in recovery, or searching for direction in your own life, this conversation is a reminder that your past doesn't have to define your future.
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Can the justice system do more than punish? Can accountability, compassion, and second chances work together to change lives?
In Episode 39 of Behind the Citgo, we sit down with Judge Jason Disbrow for a candid conversation about criminal justice, addiction recovery, and the role of the courts in helping individuals rebuild their lives.
How do we balance consequences with rehabilitation? Can recovery-focused approaches help break the cycle of addiction and incarceration? And what does it take for judges, law enforcement, treatment providers, and communities to work together toward lasting change?
This episode explores the importance of accountability, second chances, and creating meaningful pathways to recovery.
Join us as we discuss how the justice system can become part of the solution and help transform lives.
Topics include:
Criminal justice and addiction recovery
Accountability, rehabilitation, and second chances
Breaking the cycle of addiction and incarceration
The role of judges and community partnerships
Creating opportunities for lasting change
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What happens when a doctor realizes that medicine alone cannot heal someone who has nowhere safe to call home?
In BTC EP#38, Josh Torbich sits down with Dr. Tom Dalton, anesthesiologist and co-founder of Eden Village, for a powerful conversation about homelessness, permanent supportive housing, faith, dignity, community, and practical solutions for people who have been forgotten.
After decades in medicine and mission work, Dr. Dalton experienced moments that changed how he understood service. One of those came after treating a patient facing the loss of his second leg—only to learn that the man’s discharge plan was to return to his car in a Walmart parking lot.
That realization helped lead Tom and his wife, Kim, toward what became their life’s work: Eden Village.
Today, Eden Village provides permanent supportive housing built around a simple philosophy:
🏠 Housing is healthcare.🤝 Community is the solution to homelessness.❤️ Dignity is the solution to poverty.
Tom shares the journey behind Eden Village, the role faith and service have played in his life, and why stable housing can be foundational to healthcare, recovery, and long-term well-being.
The conversation also explores small-home communities, relationships over transactional solutions, local church involvement, resident success stories, and Eden Village’s plans for future expansion.
This episode is about more than housing. It is about seeing people who are often overlooked, restoring dignity, and turning compassion into action.
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In BTC EP#37: Playing It Forward - Sobriety, Faith, and the Long Road Back, John Chandler shares the powerful story of a decades-long relationship with alcohol, the consequences that followed, and the moment he finally realized he needed help.
John’s struggle didn’t always look like addiction from the outside. He built a successful business, raised a family, served in his church, and lived what many would consider a successful life—all while becoming a highly functioning alcoholic behind the scenes. From drinking at a young age to multiple DWIs, divorce, devastating loss, and eventually blacking out so severely that he unknowingly drove away on a golf cart, John’s story shows how addiction can slowly take control even when everything appears normal.
October 2, 2024 became his day of reckoning—and the beginning of a new life in sobriety.
John opens up about faith, grief, accountability, recovery, and one of the most important lessons he learned along the way: “play the tape forward.” When temptation or a difficult decision comes, think beyond the moment and ask where that choice will ultimately lead.
Today, John describes one of sobriety’s greatest gifts with a simple word: presence. Being available for his children. Sleeping through the night. Living without fear of the next consequence. Appreciating where he is instead of constantly trying to escape it.
This is a conversation about alcohol addiction, recovery, faith, second chances, and discovering how much there is to gain when you finally stop focusing on what sobriety might take away.
If you or someone you love is walking through addiction or recovery, we hope John’s story reminds you that the road back may be long—but recovery is possible.
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What happens after rock bottom when you decide to roll up your sleeves and build something better?
In BTC EP#36: “Rock Bottom Rolled Up My Sleeves,” Todd Putnam and Eric Barber of Scrub Buddies join Behind the Citgo for a powerful conversation about addiction recovery, entrepreneurship, faith, hard work, and rebuilding life with purpose.
Both Todd and Eric are recovery program graduates who carried lessons like consistency, accountability, honesty, perseverance, and faith into the world of business. What started as a pressure-washing company grew into Scrub Buddies, a service company offering house washing, interior cleaning, landscaping, renovations, and more.
They talk openly about the realities of starting and growing a business—learning when to say no, handling failure, maintaining quality, leading employees, having difficult conversations, and continuing to show up when results do not come quickly.
The episode also explores why recovery is about more than simply getting sober. It is about rebuilding, finding purpose, creating meaningful opportunities, surrounding yourself with the right people, and developing a life worth protecting.
For Todd and Eric, faith and hard work remain at the center of that journey.
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How do culture, stigma, and family expectations shape addiction recovery? In this episode of Behind the Citgo, host Lavar Marlow explores the barriers that prevent people from seeking help, with a focus on experiences within the African American community.
Through personal stories and honest conversation, this episode examines generational alcoholism, mental health stigma, and the ways families can unintentionally normalize addiction. We discuss how pride, silence, and the expectation to “toughen up” can delay recovery—and why seeking counseling or addiction treatment does not mean abandoning your faith.
The conversation also explores:• Supporting a loved one without enabling destructive behavior• How churches and trusted community leaders can connect people with help• Why access to recovery resources remains a challenge• How one person’s recovery can inspire change across generations
Whether you’re navigating sobriety, concerned about a loved one, or helping others find support, this conversation offers a message of faith, compassion, and hope. Recovery begins with honest conversations—and no one should have to face it alone.
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